I'VE LEARNED

SO TRUE ...

I have learned (author unknown)

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them;
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back;
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts;
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm, for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something;
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.
I’ve learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I’ve learned that it’s taking me a long time to become the person that I want to be.
I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may b the last time you see them.
I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you can’t.
I’ve learned that we are responsible for all we do, no matter how we feel.
I’ve learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I’ve learned that no matter how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take it’s place.
I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I’ve learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I’ve learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re downhill are the ones to help you get back up.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean that they don’t love you with all they have.
I’ve learned that maturity had more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
I’ve learned that your family won’t always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren’t biological.
I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to forgive yourself.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.
I’ve learned that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will get hurt in the process.
I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I’ve learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I’ve learned that the people you care about the most in life are taken from you too soon.
I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.

Amazing visual artist Archan Nair

Amazing Indian visual artist Archan Nair

DMX speaks from jail

One of my favorite artists of the times when I was at high school ... DMX speaks from jail. Good to see, he is back with God and not "riding with the d" anymore ... We used to jump around to "Party Up" back in the days. I gotta say, when I was locked up, I also found myself in a situation when I realized that my life and all circumstances are in the hands of God only and there was a purpose for me to be there for that time, I met a lot of people and spoke to them, and I believe I helped some of them or at least tried to. I'm really feeling X.

Russian Old New Year celebration, Stratford Old Town Hall, 13 January 2009

Russian Old New Year celebration, Stratford Old Town Hall, 13 January 2009

pictures, me performing live:

ENGLISH VERSION OF "SU-242"

A few days ago I recorded English version of my song "SU-242" (Jason Air Productions), as demanded by many people. The original song is here:

SU-242 - Jahna & Jah Souldierz


and new version is here:

SU242 English Version -

Barack Obama speaks on the USA economy:



Hard times coming. We just gotta remember that in the worst financial situation, even when one loses all the money he/she has, the main point is not to lose an ability to love, be compassionate and still be able to enjoy simple things of life, and what you can't buy with money like relationships with people close to you, self-esteem as a person's value is not in how much cash he/she earns but in personal qualities that especially those that makes him/her understand particular Mission, whether making global historical changes or being a local teacher, a doctor, a mother etc. and that's what separates human beings from lower animals, particularly ability to think, analyze and realize that troubles can teach us if we learn the lesson. We don't have to self-destruct even in the worst times. That means keeping it positive.

peace

First human may come from India

Now that I'm so far away from Moscow, where I was born, living in London and seeing all people and cultures mixed together, I am trying to identify myself and my roots. Now this theory about Aries invading India and bringing their achievements to "retrograde" India, as there are no scientific facts confirming that it really had happened. Nothing about any kind of invasion has been documented in ancient Indian literature including Vedas. It is more likely that the theory of the invasion was invented by colonists in the late XIX - beginning XX centuries, as this could give a good excuse for them bringing their "advanced" technology and civilized ways of living to India for "second" time in the history. However, there are scientific facts that show that civilization in India is much older and dates back to 8000 B.C. at least if not earlier , also the archeological researches show that mathematics and astrology were very advanced, and the facts documented in the oldest known text Rig-Veda, that date back to 4500 B.C. and there are facts suggesting that Egyptian civilization has adopted the mathematical and astronomic knowledge from India. The oldest gene found in the oldest human being is M1. It is suggested that men appeared on Earth some time around 70 000 B.C. Some people with that ancient gene M1 can still be found in Kerala, India.
This is one of the videos about origins of civilization of India:



Now here are recent studies suggesting that the origin of M1 gene is Asian, and it is more likely that first human beings appeared in India.

PubMedCentral article:

"The coalescence age of the African haplogroup M1 is younger than those for other M Asiatic clades. In contradiction to the hypothesis of an eastern Africa origin for modern human expansions out of Africa, the most ancestral M1 lineages have been found in Northwest Africa and in the Near East, instead of in East Africa. The M1 geographic distribution and the relative ages of its different subclades clearly correlate with those of haplogroup U6, for which an Eurasian ancestor has been demonstrated.

Conclusion
This study provides evidence that M1, or its ancestor, had an Asiatic origin. The earliest M1 expansion into Africa occurred in northwestern instead of eastern areas; this early spread reached the Iberian Peninsula even affecting the Basques. The majority of the M1a lineages found outside and inside Africa had a more recent eastern Africa origin. Both western and eastern M1 lineages participated in the Neolithic colonization of the Sahara. The striking parallelism between subclade ages and geographic distribution of M1 and its North African U6 counterpart strongly reinforces this scenario. Finally, a relevant fraction of M1a lineages present today in the European Continent and nearby islands possibly had a Jewish instead of the commonly proposed Arab/Berber maternal ascendance."

True love, passion does last a lifetime

True love and passion is hardly ever dented by ravages of age, says a new study based on brain scans.

Brain scans of couples who have been together for 20 years prove that they are really capable of loving each other with the same intensity and passion as they felt in their initial relationship, until their last breath.

These scans showed that a tenth of them showed a burst of pleasure-boosting dopamine while looking at the photos of their loved ones, the same chemical reaction that young couples exhibit in the first flush of lust.

It contradicts a previous study suggesting that passionate love peters out in 15 months, after going through a roller coaster ride, called 'limerence' in psychological parlance.

Stony Brook University (SBU) researchers who conducted the latest study said that when limerence matures, it permits couples to enjoy "intensive companionship and sexual liveliness".

Simply stated, they are able to sustain the same level of romance and passion decades later.

Researchers concentrated on factors like passion, romantic love and lust. They nicknamed such couples "swans" because swans, voles and grey foxes stay paired for a lifetime.

"The findings go against the traditional view of romance - that it drops off sharply in the first decade - but we are sure it's real," said Arthur Aron, SBU psychologist.

Billy and Michelle Jordon, one such pair of 'swans', who live in California, still amaze friends and acquaintances by holding hands all the time. "It comes very naturally," said Michelle, 59.

original post: http://www.dnaindia.com/report.asp?newsid=1219130






Uplifting news, I almost lost my hope to ever have an opportunity to experience something like this, especially now, when people come together for convenience (including financial) or just simply fearing to be alone or single in the eyes of friends, but the study shows that true love does exist and lasts forever. It's better to wait for whatever time needed for that right person, rather than keep getting involved in some lightweight relationships only to find out they were not true. One of the tests to see if that's the right person before anything happens is trying to ask yourself, could imagine this other person with you in less romantic situation, like war zone, or would actually feel good and "love to" cook him or her breakfast (even if you don't like to cook) or have kids may be? To me, there is no point in hanging out with a man for the sake of it, even if I don't get sex for years, I'd rather wait for that special person to share all kinds of good moments together. Sex is a form of expressing love not the goal on it's own. True love is when you want to start a family with the person meaning functioning as one, feeling his/her sorrows and happiness.

REAL MAN VS. FAKE MAN

A REAL MAN will say I love you and mean it
A fake man will say I like you, but only for the moment

A REAL MAN will open the door for you
A fake man may have you open the door for him

A REAL MAN will give his heart and soul to you
A fake man will give you his body and a one-night stand

A REAL MAN will be there when you need him the most
A fake man will be there when you need him the least

A REAL MAN will know when he has hurt your feelings and gone too far
A fake man keeps going until you tell him he needs to stop

A REAL MAN knows when his time is up
A fake man doesn't know when to give up

A REAL MAN doesn't mind being the protector
A fake man doesn't care as long as he's protected

A REAL MAN will hold you and dry your tears
A fake man will sit there watching you cry and say "man up"

found here: www.myspace.com/akiddtheproducer

MY THOUGHTS: IF YOUR BABY IS A COINCIDENCE

(if you feel like trying to reach out makes you loose your dignity - leave it until better times at least)

DISCLAIMER: I am not talking about all men or all women in general, this only touches particular situations and of course there are real men, great fathers, loving husbands and caring boyfriends out there.

I wanted to share some thoughts about situations, which happen quite often, when women get pregnant and it's just an unplanned coincidence. First of all, my advice is: never go for an abortion, you'll find out that every life to be born is a miracle, and you'll be happy that you haven't made a mistake that could never be changed afterwards - never ever.

So, in situations when you have a baby from a man, with whom you have no particular relationship and the only way to get him is to go through lawyers and courts, if there is no opportunity to have a direct, honest conversation with a person looking into each other's eyes - I think it's better to leave it. In times when so many children are getting adopted and find home in families they have no blood connection with and in many cases - happily, it doesn't matter who the biological father is if he is unwilling to take part in his child's life or the only way to get him is through such pain as courts. It's not worth it. There will be a chance to find a real soul mate, and there are many examples when men adopted kids of the woman from previous relationships.

When I was born, my Dad was far away, he only appeared and saw me for the first time when I was over 2 years old, but he wasn't there when my my was pregnant and after she gave birth at all. A few guys were in love with my Mum and proposed to her while my Dad wasn't there and they all were saying to her: "Nina, your baby needs a father, so I can be the one!" Then my Mum married one guy and he was so much in love with my her, he really wanted to adopt me apart from hoping to have his own children of course. And those guys were not some miserable ones or golddiggers, they were descent ambitious and successful.

So we need to live for the beautiful moments of life, rather than dragging into some pointless drama, like going to family courts and begging for financial support. I know, you might think I sound crazy, but listen, I come from the country where majority of women are independent and hard-working, and even when they divorce they manage to bring up the children on their own without taking anything from a man while making their career, it's hard but at least you don't loose self-esteem. There is nothing more important than your dignity, and there is nothing that can stop you from possibly making the same or more money than any man, if you educate yourself and concentrate on achieving your goals. However, it depends what you like more: dedicating your time to having a beautiful date, great sex and being with a person who respects and appreciates you - and if he does, believe me he will feel the same way about your child - or fussing an fighting for some dollars or pounds with a man who don't even care how you feel, wasting your time on somebody who don't deserve it at all.

And if the man who made you pregnant, you have known only briefly, hasn't been there for you at any time, he practically has as much reference to your child as the anonymous man who's sperm you could buy at a sperm bank. Some men (I don't say ALL men) manage to live good life while having unprotected sex without even thinking about further responsibilities. If that ends up in making a baby, it doesn't make them fathers automatically just because they are spreading their seed around the world, it only makes them sperm donors. A child doesn't need a father who doesn't respect his/her mother. As one of my friends in Russia said: "That's not gangsta". Meaning, even real gangstas there don't abandon their kids, don't have to love the woman but take care of the child for sure.

Gone are the times when men and women came together mainly for economical reasons. We need soulmates, with whom we can go a long way with, have times of positive understanding and primarily moral support and respect for each other. Women can be confident, we can make it with or without men, and children are not a burden, they are inspiration.

I know, I am a mother.

JAHNA SEBASTIAN

MY THOUGHTS: THE TRUTH ABOUT HISTORY MAKING

How genius makes it or from nothing to something

Now I wanna talk about understanding of achievements in the light of circumstances given.

"I come from a place where kids are addicted to glue" - that's one of the lines from K'Naan's song "What's hardcore?". That is relevant to Russia too.
When I was locked up I've seen people who have come through some serious offences in this life: I've seen those who were raped, betrayed, lost all their possessing because of war, have been persecuted or unlawfully prosecuted etc. and still they would be looking into the future with their eyes wide open and not losing a positive view. In some countries the most common word you hear is "death" and it's like cleaning your teeth everyday, like watching football.

Let's take two examples. The genius of Bob Marley, who was a boy from a small village in the middle of nowhere in Jamaica, who came all the way from there to become an international Icon, some consider him a prophet. He had to struggle longer than even the period of him finally becoming successful superstar before he died, but the legend will live forever. He became from nothing into one of the most influential people of the last century and even now posthumously. He came from a small poor family in a controversial and at that time very racist society and if you want to talk money - well, his albums are still selling better than some of these chart-floppers of these wannabe pop-stars, who don't even write any of their songs not being particularly talented vocally or artistically either.
Then let's take somebody (not being specific to name) who was lucky enough to have a huge family that was mostly involved in the same industry, born in UK or US, then together they build empire brick by brick, making more and more money and than becoming so money-blind that the only thing left is to boast about how much they have. Now, people born in Jamaica, Somalia or Russia have less opportunities to start with in this world than those born in US or UK, especially if you belong to ethnical minority (that's why it's called so, there's not many people like you) Then sometimes you have to go to another country to survive and get a better chance in life, but start everything from the beginning on your own, being absolutely lonely with NOONE to back you up. Now who has the LONGER WAY TO THE STARS HAS MORE REAL DIGNITY AND RESPECT. There is nothing to boast about if you have been given a relatively easier circumstances to go through than somebody else who had to struggle to get what he has. Now looking at some chain blingers in America and at kids who are war-veterans in Somalia, I can clearly see who is the NATURAL WINNER.

I felt like I'll post an incomplete list of famous refugees:

Moses - fled Egypt after killing a man [subject to belief and historical record]
Jesus - his family fled from Israel because of King Herod [subject to belief and historical record]
Muhammad (PBUH) - fled from Mecca to Medina in 577 [subject to belief and historical record]
Max Born - Nobel Prize for physics - German-Jewish refugee
Albert Einstein - one of the world's most famous scientists - German-Jewish refugee
Alexander Alekhine - chess World Champion, who moved from Communistic Russia to France.
Marlene Dietrich - actress and refugee from Nazi Germany
Peter Carl Fabergé - Russian jeweller, fled Russia via Finland, Germany to Switzerland.
Alfred Wolmark - painter, a Polish-Jewish refugee
Mika -famous singer who fled from Beirut Lebanon .
Wyclef Jean - Haitian refugee. Named group Fugees (short for refugee).
M.I.A. - English-born singer. Part of a Tamil Sri Lankan refugee family
Bob Marley - Fled Jamaica to Miami after being shot during political violence.
K'Naan - Somali "The Dusty Foot Philosopher" Hip Hop Artist now living in Toronto, Canada
Karl Marx - political theorist and German refugee
Leon Trotsky - Marxist theorist, and former member of the Soviet Politburo
Madeleine Albright - former U. S. Secretary of State
Sigmund Freud - Austrian Jew, founded psychoanalysis, he fled from Nazism in Austria
Claude Lévi-Strauss - French-Jewish philosopher and anthropologist. He was a French refugee
Michaëlle Jean - Haitian- The current Governor-General of Canada
Anish Kapoor - won the 1991 Turner Prize. His parents were refugees who fled Iraq.
Sir John Houblon - grandson of refugees. He was the first Governor of the Bank of England
Alek Wek - a supermodel, she fled Sudan with her family
Tanya Sarne - fashion designer and creator of the Ghost label. Her father was a Russian refugee.
Sir Alec Issigonis - designer of the Mini, he was a refugee
Anne Frank - as a child she fled from Nazi Germany to the Netherlands.
Vladimir Nabokov - Russian author and lepidopterist. Escaped to Europe from the Russian Civil War and then to the United States from the advance of Nazi Germany.

Even though some of these people might not have made as much money as 50 Cent, or some of the little kids next door would know Souljaboy better, the contribution of the first to the global history can't be valued with money or underestimated.
We need to understand that people who have really made history, I would say every real leader has been at some point very low and powerless, when those who had no moral right abused or offended them just because it seemed they had more lawful or money power. This life has ups and downs and practically the STRONGER AND MORE HISTORY USEFUL THE PERSON IS THE BIGGER THE CONTRAST IS IN DIFFERENT TIMES IN HIS/HER LIFE.

The same way this refers to those who got something too easily - don't be too overwhelmed with illusions, nothing material lasts forever, even your physical life on earth.
The history also shows, how leaders have been abandoned by the most useless hypocrites in hard times, than only to trade places of both sides so revenge was impossible to avoid, but it was too late for those hypocrites to apologize ... The History is a joker too.



Peace n Harmony

One of my favorite videos of 2008 from one of my favorite albums of this year

in the times of world crisis we gonna say - sooner or later it all comes crashing down :)

N.E.R.D. - Sooner or later

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LIVE 2005-2008

Check out some of my live performances from Moscow to London, 2005-2008:




The bands and artists I've performed with in this video:
United Vibrations
Dawn Penn
C.L.O.N.E. (Clean Tone)
Muzungu
Jah Souldierz

THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY DO ...

I just saw this on RealTalkNY:

The Baltimore Examiner obtained surveillance footage of teenagers laughing while a 46-year-old man is robbed at gunpoint and then shot in a Chinese carry out. Two teens have been charged as adults, but the rest will probably not be charged for their callous attitude. Detectives told Luke Broadwater that shopkeepers continued taking orders and serving customers while the man bled on their floor, refusing him shelter behind the counter.

FULL STORY

This is crazy, in this time and age we are supposed to be moving forwards, or it seems some people evolute back to monkey level? There are tough areas, I've seen some craziness going on. BUT. I have to say, when some people are trying to get explanations to things like that saying: "They were drug dealers, now they got now choice, too much pressure on them, so they have to rob". No matter how poor you are, there is ALWAYS an alternative. Especially in developed countries like US and UK. Education will open your eyes on better things in life. You don't have to want all the bling-bling all at once. There is a more positive way, if those guys at least went to college, they wouldn't end up selling drugs in the first place, even in these times of world crisis there is always a way to keep yourself on top of things. What a wasted life - hustling drugs, robbing, then - prison, then after serving the time, everything starts again in the same circle. Or read some books, take some course, find out what you might be good at in this life, get a job, you gotta start somewhere, nobody can be the boss straight away, then after you get some experience - start your own business. That way when you are 50 you'll probably be retiring on your villa in Spain instead of going back and forth from prison to outside world when your kids - if you ever have any - will hate you, swear at you, and probably follow your footsteps. There is no point to this. If you want to - you CAN get out. Just open your eyes. Some of my friends used to be part of Russian mafia back in the days, and that's not some local thugs, those guys were seriously controlling the whole areas in Moscow back in the 90's. They all have grown up now and found God and a goal in there life. The goal is - to master what your are good at and achieve the best results and make a positive impact into your community. Peace & Blessings

I AM BACK TO BLOGGER

I haven't been posting for a while, but now I am back to blogger with some new stuff right here.

my debut music video on my song "Tough Game":












and "Making Of "Tough Game" music video":










The video was produced by my friend Black Jack (Black Jack Productions) and features MC Den Bro, MC Ganz. We had a lot of fun, but apart from that I can say: I did it, I shoot the video for myself on my own budget. I am not gonna sit there and do nothing even considering the circumstances I am in. I have to move on no matter what. I think it's happening