Sunday 27 June 2010

I give thanks for being a producer myself so I don't have to fuck for tracks as if I was just a singer

This is the last drop, I just have to talk about it. Since I was 13 I have had to decline offers and sometimes ultimatums by men who would want me to sleep with them in turn of helping me forward my singing career. I have worked with many artists, producers, but everything I achieved is because of hard work, however I had to make decisions which closed certain opportunities in my career.

Today I was supposed to perform at Glastonbury Festival, the biggest festival in UK running for 40 years and just being a massive explosion of positive vibes. I rehearsed, mixed the instrumental specifically for this occasion, postponed a lecture at school I was supposed to give, bought special outfit and asked my mother to stay a few days more to babysit my daughter.
But the day before yesterday the male artist/producer we were going with gave me the ultimatum that I must stay with him an room at the festival, and I refused, saying that I can't stay with a man in a room like that. Of course, with such ultimatums I didn't go. I feel sorry that because of such low intentions the whole thing was completely poilt once again. Even though I have done engineering and played keybords on his tracks too for almost a year.

One thing I know that every step I made in my career has always been earned my hard work and skills and I have never sold my body to get further in the business. I didn't take on opportunities that were offered by those men who wanted me to pay with my body, I learned to produce myself and learned to be in a different position. A few years ago I realised that if only stick to singing and dancing, I would have been dependent on producers, and all of those I met were men - many of whom did want me to pay the price. So I figured if learn to complete a track by myself, it would save me time wasted on those men who give hope and then ultimatums, and money. I learned the skills of engineering and became geeky about it, but it's blessing that I have the right mindset for it and it doesn't bore me at all - in fact, the opposite reading some articles about new gear calms me down.

Hearing about some of today's successful artists, who for their career sleep with producers jumping from one to another, break up marriages even when kids are involved and take everything for themselves with no sense of morality, building their image by speculating on sacred things, then get Grammys and worldwide promotion, I think to myself that somehow they get away with it too easy, but what is happening within their soul?


UPDATE
29th July 2010

I was very surprised to find out that some folks started assuming that there were subliminal messages in this post. There are NO subliminal messages there.

The conclusion in my post was a general statement that can apply to various artists around the world from UK, US, Russia, China, Germany etc and at any point the history of music business. It was not targeted at any particular artist especially someone who writes and produces songs for themselves and other people, where is the logic in that? It was definitely not about Alicia Keys. Any Russian person who read it could have possibly linked it to a famous Russian artist in their mind who folks in the US or other parts of the world have never heard of. I guess, people see what their eyes want to see. No need to start a beef here and spread hate by taking words out of context.
If I said that I don't fuck for tracks it means I don't and have never done so. The story about Glastonbury is one of the incidents that happened in my life and was very upsetting. Also it doesn't mean that every relationship within the industry have to do with ulterior motives, people simply fall in love sometimes.

18 comments:

  1. didnt you sleep with a married man too and have a baby...hmmm

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  2. I am with you Jahna... And to the person that left the comment befor mine, shut the hell up and mind yours...

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  3. no disrespect, but you need more people. you're basically in a glass house throwing stones and that's not cool because you did the same thing you're trying to get on others for.

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  4. you're a silly girl for posting this. and you should be ashamed. you are no better, you are the same as those you condemn, and even worse for doing so.... seems like jealously to me..Im brt if he wanted you he could have you

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  5. she didnt know he was married at the time, nor did she know he was a big time producer, you stupid fuks! She found out only AFTER she got preggo, alicia was well aware so all of u go fuk yourselves! come and read my blog and read about alicia keys, i hate that dike

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  6. Jahna this is tacky! Your personal life is just that your personal life and it seems you have a bit of growing and soul searching to do your self because you are attacking the wrong person. Alicia Keys did not lie to, sleep with or get you pregnant. Whatever your issues with your child's father that should be between you and him and the court system if necessary. But this public blog mess is not the way!

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  7. @clebhaterz u r a clown. You hate Alicia because why again? Did she sleep with this woman and get her pregnant? I dont buy that she didnt know Swizz. If she claims to be a producer then how did she not know him??? Why did she sleep with someone she didnt know WITHOUT A CONDOM? Why did she wait to speak about it now and why did Mashonda pick on Alicia and not her. Yeah the answer is everyone is trying to get rich off of Alicia Key's name. Well she is not sweating it. It's not ok to throw stones when you live in a glass house. Get off the high horse and smell your own armpits and stop draggiing innocent people's names in the mud. Hahna you would be better advised to keep your life private. Your daughter will read this and know she was a one night stand! Stop it!

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  8. Jahna, I don't know much about you and just listened to your music today. I agree with another reader in that what was written in this blog is tacky. Not all of it just the last little bit. You're too beautiful a woman to be writing something like this. If your beef is with the father of your little girl, that is between you and him. Good for you that you had enough self esteem to not pay with your body to get ahead in your career. Excellent story for you to share with other young girls who may want to be sucessful at any cost and are contemplating doing whatever they have to to make it. However, when you went from telling a story that began as a good lesson for young girls to making accusations about another artist I didn't quite get. I mean, I got how you were trying to relate the story but why you wanted to use this artist as an example I'll never know. By the end of the blog I realized your intent was not to share your story about the man that wanted you to stay with him in the same room but was more about a problem you have with a certain artist. You should of just said that. Don't misunderstand me, I get it that you sometimes have to start with some type of story in an effort to be tactful in what you really want to say but this wasn't. Stop being so ugly for such a pretty girl. Whatever anger you have towards that man, let him have or better yet, forget about it. Your baby girl, "little miss", can tell when mommy is stressing over nonsense. I'll be praying for you, take care....

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  9. For someone who is so accomplished you come off as a silly and jealous teenager. If you have a problem with your BABY DADDY then take it up with him or the courts. Alicia didn't lie to you or get you pregnant! You are not a victim the only victims is all these kids he keep creating.

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  10. What's amazing to me is that NOT ONE of the comments mention the role the male in question played. Regardless of whether she got pregnant by him - he was married, he took vows. It's one thing for another person to violate a marriage - however, it ONLY happened because HE ALLOWED IT TO - whether the women knew or now - HE KNEW HE WAS MARRIED. Shame on society for not holding men and their "little" heads accountable!

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  11. She has a lot of nerve talking about Alicia..Atleast she waitied until he was away from his wife to get with him but this brod is a trip. Just like all those hoes Tiger messed with acting like they have no skeletons... Judge yourself ... Alicia was in her own right already and swiss didn't provide none of that stardom.. But she is the one with the baby while he was with his wife Okay... Practice what you preach..She is a nobody anyway write that. Leave Alicia alone... She aint trippin on none of this shi..... I tell you about these wanna be's... Be a gonna be first before you say anything!!! How about that... Hooker

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  12. @Anonymous 17.42 Swizz is not the one who started throwing stones.

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  13. (applause) This article was right on point...I have lost all respect for alicia keys and will no longer buy or support her music...and even though jahna stated that the said blogspot was NOT in reference to alicia, it does tap alicia right on the shoulder! Mashonda in her vibe article told the whole story, to alicia I say "how you get him, will be how you will lose him" alicia obviously doesnt have to fuck for tracks so jahna was obviously NOT talking about alicia!! (come on people) BUT if the shoe fits then a lot of people must wear it, alicia included! alicia will have no good luck for breakin up someone's marriage, where those people took a vow in front of god, god will NOT take that lightly so alicia keys has to deal with that on her own and believe you, me her time is coming! I wish ladies would just have a little respect for themselves and other woman, of course the man has A LOT of blame in this but if woman would stick together and have respect for one another the man could not and would not get away with half the shit they get away with!! mashonda and swizz might have had their problems outside of alicia but then if you know he is married let them work out their problems or let course take its action and then when he is divorced he is fair game...I don't respect what alicia did, never will! a child was involved in all of this so that to me was ill!!!

    These men will only do what we let them!!! BUT karma is REAL and when he comes back it HURTS (women please remember that)

    jahna you hit a lot of people with this and you shouldnt have even cleared this up or make any excuses, people arent spreading hate..they are simply telling the TRUTH and when you write something like this, why apologize? IT'S THE TRUTH no matter who it taps on the shoulders....don't apologize because alicia is a star....IT TAPPED HER IT'S ABOUT HER AND A LOT OF OTHR WOMAN!!! Don't ever apologize for something when you know deep in your heart that she is one of a million women who needed to hear this!!!

    peace and blessings!!

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  14. all of yall have a lot of nerve coming on this girl's personal blog harassing her as if you are an angel of Jesus Christ. what she chooses to write on her own personal blog is her business. I dont think you have the right to tell anybody about themselves till you go look in the mirror at yourself.

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  15. She is sharing her personal testimony of what she has gone through. Why is it being taken out of context? How can someone help others lest they share their testimony about what they went through. Look at the context of what she is saying...For those of you who are throwing stones at her, you are treating her like what they just did to Shirley Sherrod...and like Mrs. Sherrod she was sharing a lesson she learned in life and it was taken out of context. Didn't we learn anything about that situation? Just a thought...

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  16. ♫♥☆♪MoN!QU3♫♥☆♪29 July 2010 at 13:01

    this whole situation is none of my business i just stopped by to say ur daughter is gorgeous

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  17. LOL @ Monique

    "this whole situation is none of my business. I just stopped by to say ur daughter is gorgeous"

    LOL

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