Only Faith

It's kinda twisted, once again my Mom has to go through re-approving here disability and every year has to do it in Russia despite a whole bunch of deseases you can imagine from battling breast cancer for years to stroke and diabetes and you have to pay for every check-up, every test and visit to every doctor, not mentioning medication and hospitalization, you have to pay for just jumping the queue because otherwise it can take months, years and could be just too late! Whoever has more money has more chances to survive. I am not talking about private health care, this is about local doctors, can't blame them though, their salaries are very low. It would have been cheaper to get the most expensive health insurance in the top company BUT ... nobody over there insures health of a person who had every been diagnosed with cancer! Because no matter how much money is spend there is no guarantee ... So it's like running in circles without knowing how much money it will cost, we have never been able to actually purchase all the medication and treatment needed for her and still it's just been pure faith, internal strength and trying to focus on positive thinking as much possible. I am my Mother's only child and the first time she was diagnosed with breast cancer was when I was 16 and I remember visiting her in hospital and seeing all these people with all forms of cancer in the post-operaton rooms and hearing their stories. I won't go into details cause it's too depressive. After that it's just been a battle with various things including side effects from one treatment to another and getting in huge debts and trying to get out of them. I wish the system over there will change and become more human towards people who have no other choice but fight for survival and buying life shouldn't be the only option because everyone should have equal chance to live. Only faith has been the main source of movement for my Mom in a form of mental power to heal from inside when there is not enough possibility to get help in a physical form from the outside - like the state.